i keep dreaming

This blog may say a different time of posting;but that's 'cos it's fucking American,and I'm telling you it is 12:06 fucking o'clock,so there. Sad & depressed...same thing. Am eating like god knows wot,obvious signs of my bang boat becoming rampant. Got that real empty,hollow feeling;the deep,deep sadness I get.....like someone you love has died,on the edge of tears. The fireworks have been going since bout quater to midnite,real loud....sounds like bombings,like in movies. Bet there are a few hundred dogs cowering under shelters,or running around terrified,lost somewhere in the neighborhood. Baxter is sound asleep,dreaming actually...his feet are doin' that weird running thing...like he must be running in his dream!Bless. Bein' brave girl,haven't had to take my tabby yet...oh,feel so much right now like takin' the whole damn lot..am just so tired of back seat bangers. 'Tis too hard to explain my misery,and......the morning will come soon....everything will appear better then. ....UTEgirl......