mojitos stuff

Fascinating day. *A* had drawn a "tattoo" of a flower on *M*'s forearm. They both told me it wasn't the mayflower, it was the gayflower! LOL. I told *A* I wanted a tattoo too, and she drew this:



When my wife saw it (obviously I wanted her to), she was most displeased, pointing out that of all the things to draw, she drew a heart. I asked her what else could you draw as a tattoo, other than a flower or a heart? My wife would've been really upset if she had known that I had asked ladyboy to pinch my nipple, and she not only happily obliged, but even grabbed the right one (one of them is much more erogenous than the other). That came about because while *A* and *M* were wrestling in the back, *A* had grabbed *M*'s nipples. They were both laughing and having fun, and of course I wanted to join in. *M* kept exclaiming, "*A* pinched my nipples... and I liked it!" I joined in in the safest way I could: I asked the lesbian to pinch my nipples. No unwanted sexual advances there, right?

I've been talking to *A* about some pretty deep stuff that's going on in my life right now, and she was telling me more about her sleep assault. They were actually broken up a few days ago (Her boyfriend thinks she is a lesbian, and as a gay-basher was quite vocal in how "sick" that would be), but are back together. She says it isn't the same now, and she's really only with him because he treats her kids well, and they love him. We talked about how we both give too much in our relationships, while the other person just seems to take and take. She drives him to work, cooks his dinner, let's him stay at her house... Then he calls her a lesbian and gets pissed when she won't have sex with him after they broke up?! I told her that she could do better, and that if she were single, there were a number of guys in the store who would be after her. Later, I came back and said, "I probably shouldn't say this, but to me you are the most desirable woman in the store. I know if I weren't married, I'd be all over you! The truth is, I had a crush on you... but I decided that your friendship was more important." That was all true, by the way, and she seemed flattered by it.

But I also pointed out that it was clear that we would be incompatible. We talked about how unaffectionate she is, and she admitted that she's not even very affectionate with her kids. She said she's affectionate with her boyfriend in bed (not sexually, but touching and hugging), but even in public she often pushes him away. It made me not feel so bad that she doesn't always return my hugs, and I've actually been trying not to to hug her... but she's so damn huggable I can't resist!

Speaking of not being able to resist, this morning I had decided to back off from *A*, even from talking to her about my problems, because she's been distant. I didn't know it was because she had broken up with her boyfriend (however briefly!), but even before I found that out, I was talking to her again. There's something about her that is so approachable that I'm drawn to her. Her and *T* are both just amazing women. *T* ended up coming into work yesterday, whizzing by me with a "Hi, sweetie!" When I went back to see her, I gave her a huge hug from behind and told her how glad I was to see her. She grasped my arm tightly and said she had missed me too, and mentioned how loved she felt that we were so concerned about her while she was sick. I told her she is loved. When I mentioned to her my potential move out of state, she got quite upset. I think she's coming to depend on me as much as I depend on her. Don't worry people: As a friend!

My wife french kissed me tonight. That's rare, even more rare that she initiated it, and the fact that we actually had a bit of a makeout session was quite surprising and quite nice. I thought maybe something had changed (this did occur after she saw the "tattoo"!), but later when I tried to push things a bit further, she pushed me away with another excuse. She didn't realize that it may have been her last chance to keep me from straying. Something is potentially happening in my life, though it is not in any way a certainty yet, and in any case the details will not likely end up in this blog. As with all things, time will tell, I guess.